Creativity

Creativeness is the indicator which separates herd conformism from individuality. In the world where most persons are used to wait something ready made from others or from society, those who create their own standards of being and creating things are commonly described oddballs and bohemians.

Creativity however is not just something you do for others. Creating things from nothing most often is something you do for separate you from those who only consume.

Consumerism is the religion of 21th century. In this post-capitalist era we are living, the only indicator for living in society is how much you buy and how much you consume. Those of us who are more interested about creating something new instead of just living under the definitions of others are the ones who society sees easily as outsiders and misfits.

When buying and consuming, one is not creating. When not creating one is growing numb. Numbness in society is the thing which keep masses watching rerun programs from television instead of going out and doing something wild.

Creating art is wild. Writing poetry or painting the picture forces you to step out from your conventional structured thinking and stepping to nothingness with only your empty mind with you. In this empty state and space your unconventional mind can take form or direction you never believed you will. This empty and critical process may leave you from being a believer to become a doubter or from being a dogmatist to become a nihilist.

Those three words I hold in my life are Do It Yourself. Instead of running behind money which gives me possibility to buy goods, I do things in my life here and now to get what I want without ready made standards. Here the thing you need to do is the easy choice are you ruling your life and creating the reality yourself or does somebody else do it for you while you just sit and watch your life like a television program?

I am an Active Member in organization called the Church of Satan. Many people see that organization as something bad and questionable because of it´s status as representative of this feared S-word, Satanism. However in that context I have had pleasure to get to know many creative individual persons, like poetics, musicians, painters, DJ´s, writers, artisans and web designers. These people come from many walks of life and from many different societies. They all hold very different political views and societal norms. Which, however, is common for most of these people is creativity. Creativeness gives them channel to put all these views and ideas together under one creative atmosphere and forget their disagreements in other areas.

In that sense it is justifiable to say that certain amount of creative thinking in your thoughts, your mind comes more flexible and goes easily to different directions without sorting out what is good or bad. When one starts to create something, like I do with this text, one should be able to step out from ones own beliefs and take a stance where any expectations will not define the direction you are going. By giving up of all your beliefs and opinions you became free from totalitarian state of mind which only leads to mental fascism and self censorship. When you make art or perform something, nothing should be hold as holy or untouchable. Otherwise you are lost.

We all remember the photos of Nazis burning the books. For their society the freedom of thinking was swear-word. That kind of totalitarian system may get some sort of creative projects done, but for creative artist it is mentally killing state. Dare to challenge all you have ever believed and step out from comfortable area. Only then you will feel the wind of creativity to blow and take you to it´s cold embrace.

Creativity is individuality and individuality is freedom to be what you are. Without creativity you become a part of machine and you lose your freedom by losing your individuality.

Free Will versus Causality

As Satanist I believe in certain kind of meritocracy. Stratification takes care that all of us drop or rise to certain level in the hierarchy of nature. Still we have to accept the fact, that there is no one point where all the men would be equal or have the same changes in life.

There is two factors which ensures this, and those two are the genes in our body and environment which grew us. There is of course also the problem of free will, but that I will hook later on this essay.

Genes. Man has 99% of the same genes than Chimpanzees, but yet the 1% makes us unique and separates us from other primate species. We all have also certain amount of genes we inherit from our parents, and these very much modify us as individual.

What then is the part of the genes in our success?

First, individual may be born as beautiful or ugly. Individual may be born as stubborn or genius. Also one may be born as healthy or with genetic anomaly or disease. This natural diversity between human beings is one of the biggest separating things in life.

If you have been born beautiful princess or natural prom queen, it is quite more possible to make a career as model, actress or even as prostitute than to those who have been born with cross-eyes or visible anomaly. Here the selection of nature does not necessarily prove that success would be meritocratic by it´s nature. It´s just good luck.

Secondly, environment. Environment very much takes care of how human being grows up and sees the reality. If you born in Hollywood as a child of millionaire actor it´s more probable to get everything you wish than those who born as poor black on South Central area only few blocks away. Here only way to see how stratification works in life is not just to follow what somebody owns or how beautiful house they got, but how one manages his or her life in the environment they live, no matter is it ghetto, rich suburbia or even the status of worker in North Korean factory.

Only the way how man grows from the environment he lives can show anything about his character and will.

Now, here´s the main problem of the whole discussion. What is the meaning of will in reaching one´s goal. In philosophy the freedom of will has been under the discussion over centuries, and though I don´t personally take a stance between free will and not free will, I´m still going to point some views about the free will. Nietzsche, well known German philosopher, once said that human beings enjoy to think that everything good they reach comes by their own virtues, but the negative one´s doesn´t. This kind of logic in my eyes shows itself little retard, cause it denies the causality between things. There is always the cause and there is always condition to the cause.

One point of this contradiction between the free will and causality is that accepting the causality would same time demand us to accept that free will is not always the ruling factor in one´s success. Like, if you born as biafran child on Ethiopia and your best change in life is to live two months before you die in diseases and hunger, the free will can do little or nothing to save you. Environment just puts your way too much limitations that you could exist.

Socialdarwinian perspective which is very big part of todays new liberal thinking of economy, basis to idea that we all have the same changes to success in society. This of course is total nonsense which is based more to emotional sentiments than logical conclusion. Fact is, that men rarely are equal in their changes nor either will they start from the same line. Environment, genetic inheritance and will are always in little contradiction which each other, and thus the idea that man can reach everything with purely will, doesn´t count.

Of course, like I earlier mentioned, there is certain stratification in life. Man naturally rises to certain level and stays there. In this sense individual have possibilities to success in his or her life by the frame. By working hard and using all the possible opportunities one can rise very much from nowhere to almost top of the social hierarchy. It´s just how much the free will or freedom of will helps you to reach your level. For all these possibilities just does not exist because of the causality which would propound that will may not cross over the causality and thus free will is only limited amount of freedom by the natural frame.

Now, I am not PhD. Nor Biologist. I am still interested about this dilemma. All the ideas and views are just my five pennies to this discussion which many famous philosopher have definitely been describing more logically than me. To me the problem of causality and free will is the most eventual question in philosophy. Can you make everything happen by the will and forget your genes and environment, or can you leave all to causality and live believing to destiny or karma?

I think neither of these things are complete answer to my question. Reality is not in any extremity, but rather in between them. We Satanists have concept called “Third side perspective” which means that dualist extremities are very often quite limited views so person who want to be free of them may reach more clear view by simply going thorough them and watching things from perspective which is not limited to certain view.

In my case this means going thorough the causality and free will and between the view that environment and genes are so strong we cannot fight against them versus the idea that individual can reach everything one wants simply by believing in oneself.

We of course are ourself responsible of our lives and choices we make. We cannot totally just claim that all the failures in life would be because of causality. Same time we still have to accept that there is no starting line in life which would be same to each and everyone of us, so there is certain causal frame which limits our life. We can still reach a lot and grow over our own limitations. There is always people like Stephen Hawking who have grown over all the limiting physical factors by one´s intelligence and courage.

All in all I would say that by will you can reach much and by working hard get more opportunities to prove your ability than you reach simply with talent and no will. The frame exists, but in one´s own life one can reach the level they are definitely evolved from some point to some point. North Korean factory worker and son of Texan oil millionaire can never reach same level in social hierarchy and outer status, but they can master their own life best they can in the environment they live.

Same time we still have to remember the causality between things and the effect of our personal genes and environment. Handicap child who lives in Russian orphanage thigh to limb restraint and suburbia kid from American middle class neighborhood are never going to get same amount of money, wealth and care in their life, no matter how much will or work one does.

The probable solution to my question is that both free will and causality exists, but neither of them rules completely over each other.

There is an old saying that “we are, what we make our life”, which means that attitude toward the life is the ruling factor in personal grow. Perhaps it´s just that, with right attitude you can take out of your life as much as possible when you don´t compare yourself to someone else or their achievements.

Just live your life fullest and do it for yourself.

Wrote by: Janina

Madness

In the silence of the night my mind is dark like the the darkest night.

Full of pride, ego, I. Darkness in my mind, in my site.

Night crawls over me. It tights it´s cold dark fingers around me.

Who am I, oh, who am I.. Am I she, am I he?

Madness, oh sweet madness. Take me, make me your slave.

Take me oh madness, cause I don´t want to save.

I want to drown to the dark ocean of madness and dreams.

I want to drown to the madness which makes me unseen.

Oh my ego, oh sweet me. Now I can see. Darkness is death,

rebirth and flee.

I am the god of this darkness of night, my mind is the king

of the madness and pride.

Darkness is not dark or cold. It is my best friend and like me,

ancient and old

Wrote: Janina

Vampire in Folklore

Today I will come out with few words about Vampires and Vampire Myths. We all know that creature of night who sucks blood and can take the form of wolf or bat.

In popular culture the Vampire has become a famous character and in few last years even fashion by the success of series like True Blood and Twilight, but before them there was already a robust foothold for these stories and legends. We all remember Buffy, we are all been scared by the dark atmosphere of Dracula and we all saw the Interview With The Vampire which based to Anne Rice story. These stories and many others have made Vampire to be the durable character of popular culture and the horror scene of literature.

What then is the origin of these stories?

In Eastern Europe one can find a rich tradition of myths about demons, blood sucking monsters and undead or living dead beings. Many scholars have been studying the roots of these legends from Romania and Russia back to Greece.

Many ancient cultures had creatures like Vampire. One of the most famous ones was Babylonian Lilu, whom Jews later named Lilith. Egyptian had a goddess Sekhmet who drank the blood and Hindus have a goddess Kali who drinks the blood of her enemies. Many of these demon like female goddesses can be defined Vampire as the Vampire has been defined.

Vampire has few marks which are typical to this certain character. First, they drink the blood aka lifeforce from humans (and sometimes from other animals as well), secondly they can change their form from human character to animals like bats, birds, wolf etc. Third, they are described dead beings who live so they do not have a pulse, heartbeat nor things like that. In eastern Europe area well known Dracula has all these marks though it´s role model Vlad, the Romanian king, had not.

These marks can be found from ancient India from Demon called Rakshasa. Rakshasa was demon who drank blood, had big teeth and changed it´s form to bat. It´s very well known and famous character in Hindu and Buddhist myths of the area. Gypsies of Eastern Europe had their roots in India, their ancestors traveled from Northern India to the area of Eastern Europe and many scholars have been suggesting that nowadays Vampire is actually form of Rakshasa which have been living in the myths and legends of Gypsies centuries before it got popularized.

The word Vampire is English The Oxford English Dictionary dates the first appearance of the English word vampire (as vampyre) in English from 1734, in a travelogue titled Travels of Three English Gentlemen published in the Harleiana Miscellany in 1745. In 1735 English journalist used the word Vampyre in famous Arnold Paole case where Vampyres has told to been sucking the bloods from human beings in Hungary (though the are was actually Serbia). Before this it was already known as the form of Yppur in Slavic languages like Romania, Russia etc.

So it is highly possible that Slavic yppur which nowadays have been called with it´s English name Vampire has it´s origin in Indian continent and traveled from India and Tibet with Gypsies to Europe. Of course we can´t forget and let without notion the fact that etymology knows many Vampire like beings from many area of ancient world, Mesopotamia, Sumeria, Roman empire, Ancient Greek and Hebrew tradition. Still the folklore we know today as a vampire myth is almost certainly originated to Eastern European culture which has many parts of it´s roots on India, though that´s where the gypsies came to Europe first place.

Though Vampire is very mythical being and has it´s roots in ancient civilizations, there is still a quite numerous variety of beliefs and even practices under the name of vampirism today. There is a groups who are enthusiastic with the fetishistic side of vampirism. They makeup goth style, use teeth and suck each others blood. Many of these people get the power by the fetish itself. They dress with leather and PVC and practice many sadomasochistic things under the name.

There is also so called Psychic or Energy vampires who practice the astral energy feeding and things like that. They are usually serious practitioners of vampirism who think the blood sucking as a metaphor of energy drinking. Psychic has been used a lot of these practices, though I personally think, that Energy Vampirism would be more definiable for the practice itself.

Psychic Vampire is a term which Anton Szandor LaVey, founder of Satanism and organization called the Church of Satan, gave to certain type of people who always take from others and use them never giving anything back.

As denouement of this essay I would say that vampires still live and prosper in todays world and todays popular culture. They have last centuries, but their fascinating effect to audience haven´t last a bit during decades and centuries. Many still believe in Vampires, many still practice Vampirism. Many still gets excited of them and many, like me, scholar the issue and writes about these things.

I end my essay with the words of Bram Stoker:

“Do you not think that there are things which you cannot understand, and yet which are; that some people see things that others cannot? But there are things old and new which must not be contemplate by men´s eyes, because they know -or think they know- some things which other men have told them. Ah, it is the fault of our science that it wants to explain all; and if it explain not, then it says there is nothing to explain.”

Demons!

Alone I stand before the Demons. The Demons of my mind.

They call me evil, I am bad I have too much pride.

The Chamber is dark and incense spreads it´s bitter scent.

Here I stand alone at the roof of the world, in the darkness of deepest cellar.

I call the Demons from the darkness of the chamber and they answer from the

bottom of my mind. Was it Demon who gave me this power? Was it God

who release this carnal fleshy perverted mind.

It was no god, it was no demon. It was... oh wait.. was it me?

Yes it was me!

Incense burns and candles give me the light. I call the Demon from the night.

The Demon answers and I can see it´s seductive face front of me.

The face which were my face. My face before I was birth. My face

before I was nothing but dirt. All alone in my Chamber I see the face

of Demon. My face, my face..

I found the God of the heavenly glory, I found the Demon of the darkest night.

I found them both from my imagination and yelled.

No Gods, No Masters. Except... Me!

Darkness

In the darkness of the deepest night.
By the power of the darkest pride.
I sit and dream how the darkness of night.
Takes me to be his cat and bride.

I am the cat in dark of night.
Predator beast, ruler of the light.
My silent dream is come to be.
Darkness itself, cause I am she.

Oh Darkness, Darkness take me please.
Take me Darkness make me free.
Power of the darkest night.
Makes me complete, gives me my pride!

Wrote by:
Janina

Satanic Meditation!

Younger, when not yet affiliated with Church of Satan, I studied years Tantrayana and Zenbuddhist traditions. I don´t however see it wasted time though I always knew it´s not my thing to try to become altruistic spiritual being called Bodhisattva. I learnt many useful skills I have made to be a part of my Satanic magicians path. One of these things is Zazen, Zenbuddhist meditation where practitioner of meditation focuses their mind to reality as it is from moment to moment. In Zentradition the ultimate goal is to free oneself from suffering and experience the mystical satori, enlightenment. What can this kind of practice possibly give to Satanist. To person who avoids all kind of hypocritical spiritual practices and does her Magic and ritual purely to accomplish ones own needs and wants. Quite much I would say.
 

I practice daily a some kind of Satanic meditation as my purpose is to understand the nature of reality and reach more knowledge and power by this understanding. I use certain techniques, but when making my goal purely selfish it becomes in many ways to be a Satanic act in action. Magic, like I would describe it.

So when studying Magic and trying to reach more power and knowledge, I see it very much useful to study many traditions and practices objectively and adopt their best parts to myself. Magician, from my point of view, should always try to develop and go on without fear and rejection. Then one may reach the goal they want and desire.

I am not a spokesperson to Satanism, so all my views are more or less just personal thoughts and opinions. As private Satanist, who is also a member of the Church of Satan, I however believe that for reaching greater understanding it may be good to study and practice also what other traditions may teach to us as Satanists.

Responsibility and fatalism!

There is a two ways to see things in reality. Two ways to act. Fatalism and Responsibility.

Fatalist, a person who always thinks he or she should get something by giving nothing is a type of human being whose faith makes them to avoid taking responsibility of ones own choices.

Responsible human being is a type of human being, who believes on his or her own skills and ability to make life what they want it to be.

Though I am not spokesperson for Satanism, I thought again to open my coffin of words and speak out my thoughts about this issue.

In Satanism responsibility has very special meaning and it has been named as one of the nine Satanic Statements:

“Satan represents responsibility to the responsible instead of concern for psychic vampires!”

For that reason it is not surprising to see that responsibility is actually one of the most important things one should keep in mind when looking things from Satanic perspective.

“I am my own god”, is one of the most misunderstood phrases, I have heard. Many seem to think it means something non-responsible, that you can make what ever you like without giving any thoughts to anything, but unfortunately reality does not work that way. We are free to make our choices, yes, but we also are responsible of our choices. We have to be able to stand straight and take responsibility of our words, doings and even thoughts, so when somebody says he or she is their own god, it should not be seen as nihilistic statement of one to justify what ever they like to do, but as statement of responsible human being who stands behind his choices and lives with the consequences of these choices.

Fatalism, the way to see things as karma or acts of destiny, is something very un-responsible. There the human being sees the reality like they would earn something without giving anything simply because their destiny is to reach something. This kind of thinking easily makes people lazy and weakens their mind, when they try to avoid taking responsibility of their own life by putting it to gods, destiny of karma. This kind of person easily thinks something should be given to them simply cause they want it, not cause they earn it.

I think responsible being should always avoid the practice of Simple fatalism and work diligently for the goals they want to reach. Satan is the adversary who stands proudly as they are and questions all these ideas of destiny or karma by challenging the common believes with his questions “why?”. Satan lives in responsible heart, not in spiritual pipe dreams.

Stand proud, ask the question and take the responsibility of your life. Then, really then, you know, what the life gives to you is earned, not cause you wanted it, but because you earned it.

For avoiding mis-understanding, my words are my own opinion and does not represent anything but writers subjective opinions about this issue!

-Janina

Heaven

Doing my things, playing my games.

Living in reality with no spiritual claims.

Living and enjoying. Doing my things.

Living right now like eternal Sphinx.

When you live in real world,

not dreaming of heaven.

You already live there.

Your life in flesh is the heaven.

Battle of your Mind

I have been studying many religions and traditions during my years in the world of Magic, and noticed some formula in the way how many members of different traditions are holding spiritual practices you could call self-suggestive brainwash. Aka, their members use the thought formula to manipulate their own mind. For example, believer of Allah bows to Mecca many times a day praying while doing it. This common practice in the eye of beholder is "spiritual practice" while the thing he actually does is to low his own resistance level of mind to the state where suggestion starts and critical thinking moves back. By continuing his practice he actually brainwashes himself to accept something his common mind would not do in normal state. This is something most followers of spiritual religions do very much by following the procedure of their religions.

They say, that there is no mind which could not been manipulated from outside, and many techniques of brainwash are commonly used in army, business world, advertising and specially in religion. In army this technique starts with the idea of breaking the man and building him again. During this many suggestive methods have been used to low ones critic level so while breaking the soldier their mind is manipulated in the boot camps to make them as puppet like mindless robots to obey all the commands in the moment. When we go to the area of religion very much same methods can be seen there and many others like tone level, lightning and sensory deprivation.

Sensory deprivation, one commonly known technique of human torture is quite often used in religious practice and one may found marks of it from Meditation, Chanting, Prayer etc. In sensory deprivation the mind can easily be changed from beta- to alpha level by blocking the use of normal sense partially (like vision or hearing) human starts naturally to change from outside level to inner and cause himself a light feeling of trance.

This trance like feeling is not something extraordinary, actually it is something we all use daily in situations where our mind tries to protect oneself. In lift, or in the line of super market one can cause this state for protecting ones mind from outer distractions. There is still one minus side in this state, though it helps us to survive in distracting situation it also causes state where our subconsciousness is more sensitive to the outer impressions and many religions have found it useful for their purposes. For that reason they have all been creating systematic practices which naturally cause certain “spiritual state” where man more easily eats everything from their hand. When the altered state of mind has been successfully created (follower has done it himself by following the procedure) one is more accepting to religious teachings and less resistant. They accept the teachings and continue beating the mind down whenever annoying questions come to mind by using their prayer, chant or other specialized practice to do so. In many religions this state has been called to be the state of spiritual progress, so it is something worth of go for to practitioner who willingly does his best to reach the goal.

By doing this one brainwashes himself to be a part of religious herd.

There is also some other methods of suggestive brainwash like lights and tone levels, but these I will discuss more later..

Wrote by: Janina

Gratification to Ego!

Gratification to ego, that is my way.

I worship myself and with ego I play.

They say me don´t be selfish, think others as well.

But I say to them, oh really, what the hell.

I´m a free human being, living mostly for myself.

So I do not want feel guilty or live in mental hell.

I want to make things which please myself,

enjoy my life and worship my living self.

So don´t call me selfish if I do what I wish.

I don´t steal it from you, cause my life is this.

Wrote by: Janina

MAGIC AND SPIRITUALITY

Two words I meet very often in my life are Magic and Spirituality. In most of the cases when I meet them they are attached together by saying that these two somehow belongs together. You have to be spiritual to success in magic.

Is it so?

I am a member of the Church of Satan and though I do not speak for the church cause I am not spokesperson for our religion, I will still talk a little about this issue here at my Chamber. Satanism as religion is totally carnal, this might surprise many persons who think us as some kind of Satan worshipers or exorcists of demons or what ever. Our tradition is carnal, we do not worship god, devil, or any known spiritual entities. For Satanist him- or herself is the center of universe, ones own god.

There is nowadays a plenty of magical schools who teach that magic is spiritual tool, something we do for others unselfishly same time we prey the gods or goddesses to give us this or that ability and try to play that we do it all just for others. For Satanist the starting point and motivation is totally different when compared to other schools of magic. Our magic starts from being selfish and denying all the aspects of hypocrisy. We do not hold any ideas of heavenly glory or afterlife so we do not need to run after salvation or karma. We start from the knowledge that our life and our days of glory are here and now. With this understanding we use Ritual as psychodrama to balance our psychic systems from guilty, remorse, hypocrisy and many other ´negative´ feelings that might prevent us from being balanced, happy person we want to be.

This obviously directs to the issue I have heard quite often in discussions about Satanism in public. The claim that Satanists sacrifice animals to the demons. Every rational person understands that if Satanism, like it is, is totally carnal religion without god or spirit to worship it would be idiotic to sacrifice animals to deities. Actually the best known animal sacrifice descriptions come from Christian Bible not from teachings of Satanism. Satanism teaches very clearly in The Nine Satanic Statements that man is just another animal, sometimes better but more often worse than those that walk on all-fours. Human being is just another form of animals, but with his intelligence he has separate himself from nature. Other species like cats and dogs live by their animal nature without guilt or hypocrisy, so how would there be any sense to sacrifice your superior to gods whom does not even exist? Satanist only sacrifices himself in the act of magic, that is the most powerful sacrifice one may do.

I have once or twice been asked the question “why do you practice magic if you do not believe in spiritual, supernormal, phenomenons?”

My answer and the conclusion for that is, because what I do does not include any supernatural aspects. What I do is live in resonance with nature itself. I have no intention to make myself to be some spiritual superwoman, but live in connection with nature enjoying same time life. My one and only life!

Wrote by: Janina

Sunday Morning

Sunday morning, so hard to stay. I want to go to out and play

Sunday morning rainy day. How could I go to out to play?

The rain´s excuse, Sunday as well.

If I decide, then I go bloody hell.

All excuses just weak the mind. Be though as you are.

Or your weakness makes you blind.

Sunday morning, rainy day.

I go and play, I do not just stay.

I have to do what I decide in my mind.

I am leader not follower, I am not a blind!

The ruler of my world, the center of universe.

I am my own god, not believer in faith.

I do what I wish and follow my own needs.

So out I just go now and I play like I feel!

Wrote by: Janina

The man is the creator!

The man is the creator, god his image

the man is the creator whom spiritual limits

Man is the god, only one that exists.

Man is the god, which religion does not fix.

I am the god of my own universe.

I am the god behold others would be perverse.

There is no other god, no heavenly afterlife.

Why would I live like the nun who is the gods wife.

I just wish to live, do the things that I like

I don´t feel the need to worship the creature of I

I want to fulfill all my needs here and now.

Don´t want to wait mercy or any gods front of bow.

The man indeed is the only god that exists

The spiritual religion with it´s cure does not me fix.

I am the atheist, do not worship any god.

Except only myself, these bones and this blood!

Wrote by: Janina

RELIGIOUS FREEDOM, AND WHAT IT STANDS FOR!

Religious freedom is a noble word, it means you have right to practice your own religion and the traditions of that religion with your own standards, or belong or not to belong to any religious society. Every person also has right to refuse from practicing any religion if they wish.

I live in country where this noble principle has been written to constitution and the law gives to everybody the full right to live with his or her religious views. At the same time I happen to live in country where we still have the State Church. How does these two go hand in hand? How does these two work together.

I think they won´t!

In my home country Finland which is directed to Northern Europe the main religious society is called Lutheran Church, they have the label “State Church”, they have right to collect taxes from people and companies they have right to marry people and they have also right to teach in the schools their religion.

I now state my question to you!

How, in the country of religious freedom one religious society can have right to collect taxes when others don´t have the right? How is it even possible to speak about equality in religion when one has rights and others just duties?

I love my country, it´s culture, people and our way of life. I still feel that in some questions it is better to raise your hand than just lay down and wait mercy from others. I don´t want anymore these parasites to suck blood from the honest, hard working citizens of my country. I say, if you want to teach your Christianity in your churches then do it, but not with my money. If the Christian Church cannot stand in it´s own, then perhaps it is their time to fall!

In my home country this discussion is kind of hot potato right now, all our neighbors have already abandoned the idea of one church and gone to more secular direction but here where I live these bloodsucking psychic vampires still hang on the state church label they have. Normal argument one may hear is that church does so much good that we have to support them for that reason. Bollocks say I, church has never done anything for anybody without reason. They only have their purpose to get power and ruling position and that, my dear friends, is against the primary principle of religious freedom!

I support religious freedom from the bottom of my heart, I think everybody should have right to live the way they want as long as they do it by the law of their society, and I very much see the freedom to speech and freedom to religion as parts of that right. Still, I believe in hard working, I believe in earning what you have and enjoying of what you have earned or built by yourself. For that reason I cannot accept that somebody should have right to take from others giving nothing back like Christian Church has done for decades. In the name of freedom we should give all the religious societies no matter what they teach the same possibility to stand or fall by themselves so in the name of our precious principle of religious freedom it is now time to Church to take it´s own responsibility about it´s own capability to manage without outer support from government!

So, my dear, fellow Finns. I now challenge you to raise your hand and ask the question, why should we let one religious society in our country to dominate all the others? Why in the country where freedom is the basic principle one church should anymore have the rights others don´t have?

I know the answer to this question and I hope you do as well!

It is time to support freedom and evolution, not degeneration

Wrote by: Janina

WEIRDOS LIKE ME!

I am an outcast, weirdo and geek. Most of my life I have been lonely wolf without a herd to integrate myself in. I guess that is the reason why I really admire people who create their own path.

When I was a kid I already found in myself, very powerful emotions about certain materials and all the sadistic scenes of the novels and movies. I found writers like DeSade in quite early age and got much pleasure out of the pervert atmosphere they created. When I was teenager I first found the terms Sadomasochism and fetishism. What does these words mean? What does it mean to be partaker of such act?

So I am sadomasochist and I am fetishist, I really enjoy playing with power and mix the roles. When I know that in real world I'm a master of my own reality, I can work in the field where I have possibility to make my own decisions and I know that I am definitely not one whose over you or anybody can walk without serious consequences, I really enjoy of the possibility to take the role of the slave in the session.

Some people think we are crazy, and some think we should stop living in “sin” but what does these person know about lust, power and total freedom. What does a christian puritans know about being a total object to lusts and free yourself from the control of strict moral codes for even the moment.

Fetishism is the desire for certain object and sexual pleasure of the chosen object. Fetishist knows how to taste ones sexual life with little lustful objects and get full pleasure without feelings of guilt or remorse. Leather, crossdressing, pvc, or what ever is the object that fulfills ones sexual life is the act of freedom.

Sadomasochism is the act of sadism and masochism. There persons take for short session the roles that suites for their own goals. It mean forgiving the moral, limitations of normal life and all the virtues of goodness for the moment and becoming to animal who only serves his personal pleasure.

So, why would it be, like moralists say, wrong to enjoy ones life as free of limitations created by religion or society? Why would it be wrong to live this one and only life for the most ultimate reason. Enjoyment of ones own life?

Well it is not! Life only has the meaning you yourself give to it so enjoying the chosen lust in the moment you are now living only serves the meaning of your own life.

To me act of sadism and masochism is play with emotions which frees me from the hectic lifestyle of work, school and normal everyday life. I am a so called switch and get the full enjoyment from playing both of the roles. Sometimes I really get pleasure and fun out from being totally slaved. I feel that balancing factor in my life where I normally am quite sadistic person.

So am I odd? I sure am!

Am I weirdo? I am, and I´m proud of it.

I can definitely admit that I am Sadist, masochist and fetishist. I really enjoy dressing up me leather skirt and spank somebody´s buttocks with the whip!

So screw you all whining Christian puritans with your Bibles and with your fear of death. I only live ones, and I do it here and I do it now. I don´t need your hypocritical guidelines to tell me how to live. I alredy know it.

I do what serves my needs best, and live the way I like.

I am sadomasochist and fetishist, I don´t feel shame I am proud of it!

Wrote by:

Janina

ANCIENT ASTRONAUT THEORY

I have long been a participant in the SETI project and been interested in the possibility that someday somebody will contact us. I have to admit that I am a supporter of the Ancient Astronaut theory and keep it quite probable that our divine gods might have been just quests from other planets and their so called divinity just technical knowledge which our ancestors saw as some kind of miracle.

I am not a spiritualist but very much a pragmatic lay person, so for that reason the idea that God is an astronaut from other planet, not some spiritual being, seems to me more logical than just a fate to some spiritual nonsense.

I was watching a document with my husband. The document told about the ancient Sumerian gods called Anunnaki. These gods came to earth with spaceships and created human race to be their slaves In the document they assumed that this story of annunaki is the base to the story of Adam and Eve from the Christian Bible as well as the character of ancient Egyptian gods.

Though this theory is purely speculative my kind of old Star Trek freak feel it more resonating than the boring teachings of the Bible about some allmighty creator in the heaven watching us from the top of a cloud, controlling everything with his magic powers.

I have allways been in love to these stories about Vampires and Werewolves who were borned from the Ancient Egyptian God so the idea that maybe their base is in another specie which came to earth from another planet is quite fascinating idea and the idea of the being who looks to us almost godlike would just be ordinary member of some other specie who created in the minds of human beings the root for all these magnificent creatures like vampires and werewolves are.

It is obvious that man has created his own gods by himself, but what if the base for that creation came from outer space with a spaceship?

We may never get the answer to these speculations or we might get them even very soon, but one thing is sure. These theories about Anunnaki definitely feed my mind more than spiritual dream of the heavenly glory.

These stories at least have the value of the good entertainment, if nothing more!

Being Elite

I am a Satanist and Member of the Church of Satan. I still don´t talk for Church of Satan but  only for me!

This time I wanted to put few words about elite and being part of it. What it means to be elite in Satanist standpoint?

Many people assume that being an elite is quality of certain race or certain social class. This is not true, membership in any certain race or social class does not make you an elite. It may make you elitist but not elite.
Being elite in Satanist standpoint means being the best possible in your own career, art and everything you do. Being elite means using ones own creativity with productive way.

Satanism is the religion found by Anton Szandor LaVey, the first High Priest of Church of Satan founded in 1966. He wrote this magnificent book called the Satanic Bible which is the basic text for Satanism and also few other books which specify the philosophy nowadays known as Satanism. LaVey described the thing called elite by saying:
"We are superior, and are superior not by ethnic means, but by the superior force of the will".

This shows very clearly that being elite means first of all that to be elite once should use his or her capacity to create something totally personal and get some merits as being the best possible person. Our willpower have to be strict and we have to take the control of our own lives. We are the center of our own universe so our actions should also be loaded with creativity and will to obtain something precious and meaningful to us. When we reach this goal and start to use our own potential and will to create something we are the elite.

If you think that your origin like race or family status will automatically make you elite you are just fooling yourself. You are like believers who prey salvation and beg mercy from their god.

Being elite is the high standard, it means you have to follow your own path, become best possible you and stop waiting some others to do something for you. It means taking full responsibility of ones life and decisions for once and for all!


Wrote by: Janina

Howling to the Moon!

Sometimes I feel I would like to howl to the moon like a wolf and run through the forest roaring with teeth sparkling in the bare moonlight. My inner Werewolf tries to take over my purely rational human side and replace it with my demonic bestial side, the wolf.

I see there is two sides in every human animal, the one we show to the others and the inner more animistic nature. This bestial side is under the topping we call rational human being trying to separate it from nature. Our western society, Christian Church as the leading advocate, has taught  it´s wrong values to human beings for centuries by saying man is something more than his carnal nature, something spiritual and divine. But the truth is man is just an animal, wolf howling the moon.

The idea of spiritual human being has made man to be very cruel animal, we exploit all the other species and the land by using the teachings of Bible as cover. Cause we human animals are something more, something higher we are allowed by the God to do to others as we will. The only price we have to pay for that God who gave us the land is to abandon our true nature and live in denial of all the lusts and passions we meet. This believe in spiritual creature has poisoned our minds and deluded us to believe we can reach some salvation by denying ourself and our true nature. But this, my friends is mistake which distance us from our lives and nature.

I personally think that man is animal, beast. We are hunting animals by our nature so why would I want to deny my inner Werewolf. I have made atonement with my animal side and accept completely that I am just one animal, lonely wolf.

So, I roar to the moon and run through the forest with my teeth sparkling in the bare moonlight, my inner Werewolf tries to take over my purely rational human side and I let it do it. Now my dear friends I am complete. My rational side and animal nature, are one nature. They never actually were anything separate cause I have always been animal called man who just needed to accept the animal side. Werewolf.


wrote by: Janina

Say it loud!

I say it loud, that I am proud.
Proud of being me, proud thinking purely free.
I would not live like Slave, I do not want to obey.
My way is question all, I want always have the ball.
Believers call me sinner, their fate is just my dinner.
they say I´m going to hell, for that I say just well.

I say it loud, freethinker and proud.
I don´t obey religious authority,
that´s the reason I am always minority
But hey, what the hell.
I am totally free to tell
Think everything for yourself.
Not just for  your God, who can´t save you at all
It is better to be little odd, and say I am my own god.
that´s why I say it loud. I am Satanist, and I´m proud!


wrote by: Janina